wow what is god doing

God is so dang good. he is doing more and more than i ever have thought. last night i did some thngs that released a major weight off my sholders. for those who dont know me this may not understand. i looked in to a mirror and saw myself in god eyes. and it was wsome. not all the wounds are healed. but alot are being fixed by my great phsician. i still am strugling with some things about me. my weight , my insides(which i will always strugle.. the great paul battle.. i do what i dont want to do thing) just ii still here a voice say your fat at times and your ugly. I still desire for someone who knows me to just suprise me and list all the good things about me. but those desire are not as important as the used to be. i feel like i have a little power in christ. where there were days in my recent past i felt useless. i know i am wounderfuly and fearfuly made. i know i have some great talaents but there are some things i wouder that i may be missing. i am seeing dreams that i have not seen in a long time.

also what is the thing about the blog. i love it i am so honest on here. i think it is casue i can not look in ones eyes. i have been very emotioanl latley. that has been strange. but god has used those emotions for his good.