brain damage

Let me tell you what. I am blessed. I have been going throught a soul searching time in my life. just processing stuff in my brain. well i had a great conversation with my mom. I am blessed. I have brain damage. from birth. for tose wo do ot know. i have mild cyerable palsy, sever dsylexea, i produce only a little seatonin. It happened while invetro. i was in my moms belly. she told me sometihng i have never heard her say. she belives god did this on purpose. she told me that sence i had no head trama at birth or anything happen after birth that she belives it all happened at conception. which means god di this to me. WOW. what was god thinking to do this. but in my moms voice it was not a sence of sadness but joy. i can walk and talk. i am a little slow and fumble and fall sum. i studer a little. have mood swings can't spell, and have a little trouble reading. i see all these things as negitive. she sees them as a blessing. i am alive. her child. i am helping kids just like me or wiht other disabiliies. i do things that are amazing in her eyes. i am an excelent cook. I am an arist. no not a geat athlet. cant walk down the hall some times but she sees me as her miricale. i think god sees me that way to. the more i think about things. god does not want me to hate myself or feel pitty or even browbeat myself to feel holy. he wants me to love myself and think good things about me. to see the good thngs. to reviel in who he made me. the good the great and the fantastic.