i'm moving on

RASCAL FLATTS
"I'm Moving On"

I've dealt with my ghosts and I've faced all my demons
Finally content with a past I regret
I've found you find strength in your moments of weakness
For once I'm at peace with myself
I've been burdened with blame, trapped in the past for too long
I'm movin' on

I've lived in this place and I know all the faces
Each one is different but they're always the same
They mean me no harm but it's time that I face it
They'll never allow me to change
But I never dreamed home would end up where I don't belong
I'm movin' on

I'm movin' on
At last I can see life has been patiently waiting for me
And I know there's no guarantees, but I'm not alone
There comes a time in everyone's life
When all you can see are the years passing by
And I have made up my mind that those days are gone

I sold what I could and packed what I couldn't
Stopped to fill up on my way out of town
I've loved like I should but lived like I shouldn't
I had to lose everything to find out
Maybe forgiveness will find me somewhere down this road
I'm movin' on

this is going to be the best transition in my life. that is because i have a community i love. a god that is more real to me than ever and a faith that is strong but firmly grounded in this sometimes harsh reality.
"I've dealt with my ghosts and I've faced all my demons Finally content with a past I regret" --it was said of a good friend that i m finally comfortable in my own skin. that is a miracle of god and the stubborn presistianes of some men and women of faith that decide not to give up on me at all. God has allowed me to deal with my ghost that use to haunt my dreams and plague my reality. he came in and cleaned house. those demons that tore at my sould have been defeated and i have been cleansed. it was not easy. it hurt like hell and took way longer than it should have. but it was because i called on Jesus. no, i cryed out to Jesus with blood sweat and tears. lots of tears. i am still cry out to my savior because i am still alive and breathing.
"I've found you find strength in your moments of weakness For once I'm at peace with myself" --i am weak and he is strong. the weaker and more helpless i became the more he showed up and just held on tight. it was been an amazing journey. a hard one. i had my heart broken several times. felt like my spirt was crush and i would never be the same again. well i am not the same. i am so different. because i cryed out to Jesus.
"I've lived in this place and I know all the faces...They mean me no harm but it's time that I face it They'll never allow me to change.But I never dreamed home would end up where I don't belong" --that has been the hardest journey some of the ones i love the most have done some of the most damage. unitincal but damage noe the less. lke a wounded solider shoot by his fellow troops. friendly fire that has left some bruises. they would be crushed if they really knoe i can not grow in this place anymore. these wall are no longer a safe haven but sometimes hurtful reminders that of what i was. god knows that don't want that. so it is time for me to move on. to change not only a physical address but a stae of mind .
"i sold what i could and packed what i could not" --so i sleep on a chouch cause right now i have no bed. i have a heavy heart because forgiveness is still on the way. there are still wounds to heal and hearts to be put back together but is that not what god is in the business in doing. putting peole back together much better than they were. so here i am breaking down the damn door. holding my breat cause i am scared to death and moving on with Jesus ,community and loved ones by my side.