god is rebuilding me everyday. i told a freind a little thing becasue he is strugling wiht some stuff but it also holds ture for me. I told him about habbaka and how he was called to call the isralites to rebuild the temple. it was torn and so were there spirts. how god slow rebuilt the temple. the poele sometimes got discourged but god did his work. it took time. it was hard but god is fatih. just think about rebuilding a house that was destored. ffirst before you start to build you have to clean the foundation. there is the ruble of the old building. that is like the broken peaces of a damaged beliver. all the walls have come dawn. that may be becasue of our own foolish desiions or someone eles. the old pease of the building have to be cleaned. after that all the stuff inside has to be gone throu. what is salagable and what needs to be throw away and either replaced or just gotten rid of. then the foundation has to be checked and see how firm it is. then the building is rebuilt. then it is filled agian. all of us have been broken before. we all have wouds we all go throught this process some longer than others. me i am att he point of all the stuff being gone thourh. i am having the junk thrown out and the stuff that is broken fixed. god is showing me new things i need to learn and old things i did not remeber i had i need to use. he is also showing me how some of the things i see as weakness are actualy god given strengths and gifts. I have an awareness of what is goign on in my life. i have a sence of knowing where i am and where i have been. i have always seen this as a weakness becuse i felt like it made me pround and selfish. even tonight i spole wisdom in someone lifes and felt bad becasue i felt like i was been pushy. but that is a gift. god has alowed me to feel what is goign on around me. to always see what is goign on in my life and knowing what to do. i do not always do it. but i have a vision for my life. and an insight. i have seen that as bad but know am tryign to see it is a gift. I also see my ablity to speak about god and always have scripture onmy mind as a weakness. it seems argent and when i am in a group that i am taking over. when agian it is a gift. i have the oppertonity to speak life in to peole. god is changing me every day. i also just ask for prayer in a friendship that i let get sour. i let busyness of someone eles make me mad. that was wrong. i pray that god just do his thng and be god and repair that firiendship. forgive me for being selfish and bigr that back and alow that person to be in my life and grow.